It’s been 12 days since I started chemotherapy. There is part of me that has a hard time believing it’s gone by this quickly. But there have been days where it feels like the days just drag on.
I’ve had some really good days like yesterday. I was able to go in and work a full day without feeling too bad or too worn down. That was a huge win!
There have been a few nights I feel terrible, sick, and barely sleep.
In all the ups and downs, there has been one thing I’ve found to constantly help: gratitude.
I am thankful for so much. My amazing and supportive wife and my healthy, fun, and intelligent children. All the family and friends who are supporting us. The great place I work with people who care more about me then the work I produce. The amazing healthcare providers who are taking care of me and helping me beat the cancer.
Sure, there a lot of things I’m struggling with but I have so much more that I’m thankful for. And I think that makes all the difference.
When I wake up in the middle of the night and can’t sleep, I start thanking God for all that is good in my life. It may not help me fall back asleep, but I certainly have a better outlook and maybe even a little joy while I try to drift off to sleep.
I encourage you with this: When you are going through a struggle and it’s getting you down, stop for a minute and start listing the things you are thankful for. You’ll be amazed at how that one act can impact the way you get through your time of struggle.
I thought it was time for a quick update to keep you all in the loop.
On Monday, I started chemotherapy. Going into it, I was nervous how my body would respond to the drugs. The doctors gave us hope that the side effects could be easily managed, but with the preface that each person’s body responds a bit differently.
It hasn’t been too hard on me so far–aside from struggling a little to stay awake and focused to write this update. 🙂 The doctors have been proactive about preventing the nausea and that seems to have helped a ton. It definitely has taken a toll on my energy levels. I’ve come home each afternoon and taken a nap.
Support from Rachelle, family and friends has been a huge blessing this week. It has meant the world to me. And I wanted to thank all you for your thoughts and prayers!
I think my takeaway from these first three days of treatment is this: It might be a long, tiring couple of months, but we will make it through.
P.S. I want to give a shout out to the Compass Oncology staff. They are some of the most fabulous doctors and nurses I have ever met! You know you are valued, cared for, and in great hands there.